OHDEARLORD.
I dunno what that was actually(Do you?).
ANYWAYS, In my last journal I talked about how my cousin and his girlfriend were going to have their baby. They did... TWO weeks ago. Sorry, I've been on, but I neglected to update.
His name is Franklin Mason (Last name not mentioned). They call him "Little Frank".
^He's named after my Late Grandfather(the Franklin part).
Actually, I haven't updated ANYTHING. Wow, I'm such a Lazy Deviant.
Guess what? I started to Re-Watch FMA! I'm super excited(Even though I already know whats going to happen & i'm already at the end of season one).
Can you believe how many times they change their opening&closing song-thingy in one season?
Lets talk about Gatoraide?
Its good.. DRINK IT! ...(Laughs Evilly!) :3
Recently I realized that I have a more annoying anxiety than I originally thought. (Did that make any sense to you?) Like recently some friends of mine asked me to go to a mall with them and I agreed to go. BUT, That day all the thoughts in my head were:
*I can't go...Everybody hates me...I'm going to die....They want me dead.*
And I became so scared that I laid in my bathtub for a long time staring at the shower head because I felt paralyzed.
Although I did NOT cry, and I know that my *thoughts* weren't true. They didn't want me dead and all that jazz.
BUT, I can't control that feeling. (Does anybody understand what I'm trying to say at all?) Like all these thoughts just "pop-up" and they SCARE me. And Its not scary its SCARY. IF you KNEW that kind of feeling or experienced it then you would know what I'm trying to say(I'm bad at explaining things). You can't explain it, it's far worse than SCARY. And you miss out on things because of it.
ANYWAYS, It's ANNOYING.
So to everybody who gets mad because I end up "blowing off" our plans: I'm really sorry, I hope you'll understand a lil'.
HEY! I'm motivating (Is that the right word?) myself to do updates on Art/Journals/Blogs/Whatever. BECAUSE I really need to.
OR DO I?
I do. :c
I Love all you little Rockets,
Leah Nicole